01 May. It’s nearing 7pm UK time, I’ve been busy yet again at the pc, my eyes are killing me staring at the screen. Today I gained all the last of the files on the box relating to April, there’s a total of 35 that I will need to edit for posting to the campaigning site, whilst I was doing that I was working on emptying my filing cabinet. It’s a three drawer metal old fashed set up, it’s taken me all day to sort out and I’ve taken two full bin bags of papers, a lot of them I’ve had to tear into bits, but the cabinet is now empty and I can get shot of it. What am I doing with a three drawer filing cabinet? There was a time I was using it to its max I have to confess, but that was a life-time ago. I’ll put the word out and whoever wants it it’ll be out in the close. It’s not just women that can multi-function. I was gaining footage from the box which just needs me to start the recording and to end it, and at the same time whilst listening to the recording I was drowning myself in papers for the bin. At many an occasion I was scanning the prints of the project folder lyrics and scribbling wee notes on what kind of direction I want this or that to go on. Yesterday my fingers were sore with me trying to get back into the guitar, I’ve not done much work on it today, too busy, but when I was doing the chords, damn sore. Okay, I don’t have anything to post to the campaign site so I’m now going to work on an edit for some of them. 02 May. It’s nearing 1pm and I’ve been busy assessing and developing the lyrics that are in the D4,5 tab focused on moving to the E tab. I’ve also been writing new lyrics but unfortunately the ideas are all for the personal area so far, it’s just where my head is at I guess. On the subject of the E tab, once I have added what there is to add from the D4,5, I’m going to be looking at the lyrics in the E tab with a notion of creating song, that’s me being a bit ahead of myself but that’s the plan. 08 May. I was on the day job over the weekend and on Tuesday and Wednesday. Been using my notepad when out and my notebook when home, so I’ve been doing a bit of writing. I’ve also been assessing the lyrics in D4/5 and those I judged to progress have hopefully been improved. The lyrics are now in the folder on the pc. There’s 4 of 5 for the Campaign folder, 5 of 5 of the Flatsound lyrics have progressed, 3 of the 7 Descriptive lyrics, 7 of 11 in the Love Project and 4 of 9 in the personal folder. One of the lyrics originally in the Descriptive has been moved to the Campaign. I think I’m wanting to sharpen my act and start looking at collaborating on-line on the writing of song. I think I also want to get back to where I was perhaps fifteen odd years ago and start amending the lyric of bands that want their songs with a change of direction or just smoothed over, I used to earn a few bob doing that and it would perhaps release me from the day job. It would be a massive tare to me if I’m successful, there’s a number of the staff there that I would seriously miss. Och we’ll see. 09 May. It’s 5pm UK time and I’ve successfully placed the D4,5 lyrics that I chose to move to E now on the E tab, pretty confusing to start with but finally got there. I’ve been writing a lot of new lyrics today, I don’t know, a beautifully sunny day and I haven’t passed the door, but I am up to date. Been learning ten chords to do with the guitar, feel I’m ready to start the strumming and bring things to life a wee bit, finding it boring just playing the same chords. I’ll be printing out a hard copy of all the lyrics in the E tab with a view to doing two things. I want to look at what music I can add to them, we’ll see; and the second is to look at perhaps improving them although I think my game plan is the music side of it, not sure. I know I need to look at the narrative on each of the lyric pages and make a bit more sense of them, they’re a little bit dated. 14 May. It’s after 4pm, a beautiful day and I was out there to get myself something to eat for tonight, wanted to get my hair cut but the barber was busy, hate waiting. I was exposed to the sunny weather for all of what half an hour, oh well. Today I’ve been busy gaining video footage from the Sky Box, gained 16 files for May, still working on edits for April, but not to worry. It’s a time-consuming task gaining material because you have to view it as you save it, it’s not via the pc though it goes to the pc. Anyway, I noticed that I’ve nearly completed three quarters of a 300 page notebook which I started on 27 April, been pretty prolificate and I feel there’s a lot of good stuff to work on. In comparison, there’s a completed 300 page notebook that I started on 27 February and it took me two months to complete, I don’t care if it’s one month, two or six, but I always like to note it. The full notebook to be fair took me two month because I was more focused on improving lyrics that are now part of the E tab. It’s crazy how I get ideas. I’m a support worker and support people with mental health although I’ve now retired, I still do two ten hour shifts a week. I always have a notepad in my back-pocket. The front part is for me to remember various things to do with work, the other side of the pad is wee scribbles of lyric. I’ll leave the office to visit someone and an idea will come to me and I need to write it down immediately, there’s tables and such walking to the flats so I’m able to quickly get the job done, but I’ve seen me with perhaps ten or so scribbles on one shift which when I get home I immediately transfer to my notebook. That doesn’t happen often right enough, only when I’m inspired. Got tons to do but I’m going to pop across the road and have a couple of pints, probably gain scribbles there for pity sake, I don’t know if that’s good or sad. 21 May. It’s nearing 1pm and I’ve been busy under the bonnet of this place, not really improved things much, I’m not a computer tech. I’m wanting a site logo, deliberating on it but it ain’t that easy to properly place. I’d like a Next Page button at the end of each lyric so it’s easier to browse through them. I’m still deliberating if I want people to be able to post to a lyric page, could be beneficial, not sure. There’s a few other tinckerings that I won’t bore you with, but it’s all time-consuming, not to worry. I think I’ve mentioned it before, I retired at the end of last year, I’m still doing two ten hour shifts a week, but two years ago I was used to doing six sometimes seven ten hour shifts a week and I’ve totally underestimated the transition. I’ve got plenty to do, but I’m finding motivation difficult at this time, I push myself but the results ain’t what I’m wanting, so it’s a bit of a struggle just now. Yesterday was another beautiful day and I went a strole in my town and ended up in a beer garden, a nice time chatting with faces I know. I later went to another beer garden and that was just as enjoyable. The first was a secure beer garden in that you need to walk through the bar to gain access to it, the second is available from the public street and I’m always warey of potential dangers, but as said, most enjoyable. Okay, I guess I had better give myself one of those many pushes and get on with it. 23 May. I’ve probably mentioned this a few times now, but the gaining motivation is really dragging me down. I’ve noted all the page narratives are way out of date and need sorted. I’m not going to look at that until I’ve worked on a promo email to send out to studios and places that may be interested in this place. I presently feel I’m talking to myself which of course I am since I haven’t advertised in any way at this point. But knowing that makes it difficult to progress, but I’ll get there, I always do. I’m finding difficulty in transitioning to retirement, got various things to do but the suggestions like a walking club, a gym etc are maybe for down the road, I need to be involved in progressing things like this place, but then I come across the motivational issues again! I’ve bought a day per day 2015 diary and yesterday I transferred all the tasks I’ve been scribbling down on A4 sheets into this diary and I need to comply with what is in it for each day, this to some degree will challenge the motivational issues. Need to do a shop so I’ll go downtown in a wee while. I’ll maybe have a couple of beers later, we’ll see. I’m on a sleeepover tomorrow and why am I nervous? I’m looking forward to it I think.