The panic that bursts in me when I think of escape
I’m in my own home but I cannot leave
I stare out the window at the world passing by
But thoughts part me into a stretch hard to breathe.
The panic attacks when I step out the door
Force me chasing back to my secure home
I’m lost in these mirrors of who I might be
I dress it I think it I get it then it’s gone.
Thinking I’m busily getting it all wrong
Forgetting in total where I’ve really came from
What’s with the wishes thoughts don’t belong…
I need a fresh start.
I’m no way a demon but feelings are there
I’ve done something wrong that I can’t sort
I think in dreams I’ve got you and me killing
I’m living a life that I fail to abort.